I used to wonder what god looks like now i doubt does he even exist
Her eyes did ,what spears do in battles.
Lord,what fools these mortals be!
That day of the year again
I am afraid that one night, When i’ll b lying sick in a hospital bed with the heart monitor beeps breaking the dead silence of the room, The pungent smell of the iodoform surrounding me,And all of a sudden, Out of nowhere, At one heart breaking moment, I will crave for u
And you will never know.
I have loved you from far away
Keeping unsent letters of what I have to say.
I stood by the window staring at the stars,The howling wolf’s in the dark reminded me of the old scars,
I twisted and turned and scratched my eyes pretending something struck the eye.
The stars blurred n I dropped a tear,
I smiled, n then laughed at my poor self,
Clinched my fist till my fingers ached,Coz I could never realize your love being so dark and pale,
My arm twitched n I felt u crawling in the veins,
I pinched my skin trying to scrape off the pieces of u left behind.If only that helped I would have peeled my skin off,
A muffled voice playing “city of stars ” was now getting loud .I rushed and picked my phone up,the voice on the other end said “Hello beautiful”
My heart grew heavy, I closed my eyes,feeling so feeble I said “I missed u”.
Pulling the string of his bow aming at the fawn ,The son of the hunter said,”how could I kill it dad ?When I see God in it.
I deleted the old chats and conversation,
Untill the radio played that song and I was in love all over again.